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pancake fun!
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If only...
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Between Merida and Cancun, Mexico
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Salmon BLT Sliders with Chipotle Mayo by howsweeteats #Salmon #Bacon #Chipotle #Sliders #howsweeteats
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Lamb Sliders with Tzatziki by fotocuisine #Lamb #Sliders #fotocuisine
Bikinis, tankinis and full pieces…Oh my!
Despite the recent Colorado snow storms (the last one dumping 10 inches) spring is upon us! I enjoy driving through town seeing the green grass peeking out under the snow, the buds growing on the trees and higher temperatures reoccurring day after day. I am so ready for spring but with all these beautiful reminders of warmer weather…comes the dreaded bathing suit season… eekk!!!!
I have made a promise to myself (and others) that this season I will buy a bathing suit. I am DREADING this shopping experience! I have not bought a swimsuit since 2003 (I think) when my cousin and I took a trip to Florida. I still own swimsuits from when I was on my high school swim team! I know I know, I need to get with the program, but just the thought of even starting this challenge stresses me out.
Why am I so scared of this, I have no idea….well that’s not true, I know why… Back in 2002 when I did my first round with Lupron Depot, I gained weight, about 40-50 pounds worth. It took dedication, a lot of time and hard work to take the weight off. Ever since then, I have been on the Oprah weight roller coaster. Gain 15 pounds, loose 10, gain 5, loose 15…well you get the idea. I am proud of my body and love my figure (no matter if I am at the top or bottom of the roller coaster ride) but for some reason I am still hesitant to bare my … legs, specifically my thighs. I haven’t worn shorts in who knows how long, I don’t even own any!
I am sure that once I find a comfortable suit and make my way to the pool for the first time, I will be fine but even writing about it right now, I can feel the anxiety building. *Deep breath* *sigh* baby steps… first the suit, then wearing it around the apartment to feel comfortable, and THEN the public pool. Maybe I will have a (couple) glasses of wine…for each step. When I find one I will let you know and post it here. Wish me luck!
Busy-busy-busy
Oh my, has time passed me by…I can’t believe how the last three weeks have flown by! (In fact it took me two days to finally get this posted!)
Two weeks ago I was up in Aspen for the 2010 Winter XGames. I had such a blast hanging out with my friends and enjoyed reuniting with an old high school friend. Rachel was AMAZING! Love that girl! She lives up in Aspen and works at a sushi house. Boy did she take care of me and my friends. It wasn’t just her great hospitality; it was seeing her after 10 years and being able to pick up where we last left off and seeing how far we have come. Her company was truly a joy! To add to the mix I had another high school friend that showed up randomly, but what was even more random was that he lives in California and I have run into him on more occasions in the past year since he moved out to CA than in the 10 years since graduation. There is something that feels so comfortable about being able to just pop back into a conversation and it being so comfortable, that is hard to find. I was only up there for one night, but it was so worth it! I got to meet Sean White (snowboarder), hang with some old friends, and dance my butt off (with the help of the Mighty Mighty Bosstones & an awesome DJ) with some of my very good friends.
What else has happened in the past few weeks? School is gong really well! I don’t think I could have better classes than I do right now, especially with them all coordinating perfectly with each other. I am taking Psychology 102, Sociology, and Human Sexuality. The three classes combined are really helping me find out what I would like to do in the long run whether it is psychology, sex education or sex therapy. I am only in the first month but I think that I will be a little sad once these classes are over.
Work is steady, can’t really complain there except for the lack of money but baseball season is just around the corner so things should be changing soon. I still debate whether to stay in the F&B business or if I should get back into the admin side. I think that is something I will have to face after the summer, I know that the money would be better in an office position but would my brain be able to handle both a desk job and school at the same time?
I think the only thing that isn’t going well is my friendship with some people. Since time has been passing me by so quickly I have been struggling with finding time to get together with them. Our schedules never seem to match up properly. I wish I could spend more time with them or find a way to actually get together, it’s a nice thought but unfortunately, I think it will be remaining as just that….a thought…
Dating, Seeing or Sleeping?
Almost every time that I talk with one of male friends, one of the first questions that I ask him is “Dating, seeing or sleeping with anyone new?” The truth is, for a single person in my age group, you are usually doing one of the three things or none of the above. As scary as it might seem to hear this to those that are older and married, this is reality. If you are not a virgin or in a committed relationship, you find yourself hopping from bed to bed, in the hopes of finding a partner that interests you in some way (depending on what exactly you would like stimulated). Your friends that are in a relationship don’t understand why you don’t just settle down with someone and your single friends that are choosing not to bounce from bed to bed, don’t understand what the purpose is. Is this really the only “in-between” option for us? What if you don’t have time for a relationship but don’t want to have casual sex?… I believe they would call that a friendship
Definitions (per me)
Sleeping – exactly what it sounds like. It is a purely sexual relationship and nothing more. Also know as a “friend with benefits”
Seeing – you have meet with this person a few times, and haven’t decided what direction it is going to go from here. It can turn into a sleeping or dating relationship from this point. You might have had a make-out session or two, but the relationship is just only starting to bud
Dating – you enjoy this persons company along with finding them sexually attractive. You have been seeing them for a while now and probably because you respect this person, you have chosen not to “seal the deal” just yet because you are curious to see where it goes and have found your once empty time is now filled with this person.
Now that we have established that, is it possible to go from a lust relationship to a real relationship filled with love and respect? Let’s say you have known a person for a while and started a physical relationship, is it possible to move into a rounded healthy relationship? If you built the relationship on something other than sex in itself like friendship, then yes, it has potential. But if what you have built it on is purely sexual attraction then the possibilities are slim. I am not saying the relationship isn’t capable of growing, but let’s just be honest. It doesn’t have the best track record.
In the end, it doesn’t matter what type of relationship that you are in, as long as YOU are happy. If you have taken a step back and noticed that you are not, then it is time to look inside yourself. It may sound cheesy, but how can you love someone else, if you can’t love yourself? I bet you, that if you start focusing on yourself things will just happen. Whether you are doing things that you enjoy and redirecting your energy internally or as basic as working on that project at work, it will all change the situation. That is why they usually say that love happens when you least expect it.
So whatever your current relationship position, I wish you the best!
Authors note: If you feel you need help or guidance, don’t be afraid to contact me. I will also start a forum on this topic so don’t be afraid to post, it can be completely anonymous.